writer’s block

by Dustin on 27/10/2008

3:41 AM, make that 3:42
Time just keeps rolling on while I’m here stuck like glue
So many things cross my mind
But nothing stays awhile, so frustrating
I just wanna say something worthwhile, speak through me

Say, say what You wanna say, and say it loudly
Say, say what You wanna say

6:45 AM, man, that just can’t be right
3 hours have gone by and this is all I’ve got
My common sense tells me I should get out the way, so You can speak
O Lord, show up or I’ll be here all day, speak through me

Say, say what You wanna say, and say it loudly
Say, say what You wanna say, speak through me
If the idea’s mine, it’s nothing but a waste of time
So won’t You say, say what You wanna say

Say, say what You wanna say
Say, say what You wanna say
Say, say what You wanna say (say it loudly)
Say, say what You wanna say

— 3:42 AM (Writer’s Block) by MercyMe

i’ve not written in so long. i think the last time i wrote was about three days before my twenty-first birthday. a lot has happened since then. i have moved back to Lake Arrowhead from San Diego since the bunch of people i was living with had to go other places. since then, i’ve a job with cartika working technical support. i really like the job and the people. i expect to learn quite a bit on the job, which i am looking forward to. but other than moving and working, i do some freelance projects and some projects of my own. i just might write about them at a later date.

for some reason, i am very very talkative on instant messengers or on irc. but here on my blog, i write very rarely. sometimes, i’ll sit down with a nice pad of paper and 0.5mm mechanical pencil and nothing comes to mind.

blankness.

this is why i have not written as much as i would have liked to. every time i write, it’s either about my shortcomings or lack of ability. i wish i could write like i used to when i was younger… or you could say, naive. i guess the writer block comes from the self-censorship since i have so many secrets. i usually keep so much and a lot to myself, letting things flow and watching.

it’s like, i cannot comment on things.

There are 7 comments in this article:

  1. 27/10/2008Ruthe-Ellen says:

    :) dude, its not a blankness after all.

  2. 27/10/2008Dustin says:

    yes, blankness. look at least 15 entries before this… and it’s never more than what was immediately happening right then.

    i want to write something long, not short… like you and some others do.

  3. 27/10/2008Ruthe-Ellen says:

    dude, why do you have to compare? sometimes, short and sweet s the best. ;)

  4. 27/10/2008Dustin says:

    yes, short and sweet can be good. however too much of shortness and sweetness can be tiring.

    sometimes it’s just that i want to sit down and write, and just write. i just can’t do that, not for lack of trying, but just that writer’s block.

    i have an idea why: do you realize that i only talk to you (Ellen) and Jonathan on a regular basis? I don’t have many friends, so I don’t have as much fun ‘hanging out’ with friends, nor get out much.

    i really want to. but it’s just that there’s not many friends, and i want to make more. it’s just that the venues have been so few and far between.

    so i don’t have the motivation to write, or even anything to write about…

  5. 27/10/2008Ruthe-Ellen says:

    well, at least, there’s little better than nothing at all. its like living your life & you only get a little luck. you’d be grateful for it, right? you wouldn’t be tired of getting every little luck. it doesn’t matter how big or small it is, be glad that its there! ;)

    yes, i do realize that you do talk to me and this one guy on a regular basis. its not about how many friends you do have. its about you and your website. you’re the one who’s writing this and everyone else are just reading it. it doesn’t matter if their opinions are valid to you or not.

    find the motivation. like i said to you about finding the inspiration. :)

  6. 23/05/2010melissa jane kielbus says:

    I know this is really old, but i’m having my own writers’ block right now.. there’s so many things I want to pour out from my brain, yet I cannot find the right words to do so. :(

  7. 23/05/2010Dustin says:

    Totally. You put it in a way I never could — I couldn’t find the words.

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